Hey there Done,
Wow, you are doing so great! 18 days without any subs! I am looking forward to the day when I can say that. It sounds like most of the physical symptoms you were having are pretty much gone but you are still dealing with the cravings huh? I found that that was my worst problem when I started the subs, just coming off my DOC. I am not real good at dealing with those pesky cravings either. I have a close family member who is also an addict, and anytime I share with them that I am struggling with cravings they tell me to pray about it and then try to keep busy to take my mind off of it. Uhhhh, Okay....That's alot easier said than done isn't it! I think every person is different...even addicts, not every addicts road to recovery is the same. I think some of us are better prepared to handle the cravings than others are. Are you going to any kind of groups or any counseling? You might find that it is helpful. You can only white knuckle it so long before you will be tempted to cave in. I would really recommend that you find some kind of tools to help you deal with the cravings before they become so bad that you give in. I went to my very first AA meeting two nights ago, and I have been using an addiction counselor for about 5 weeks now. I think that if you go into these things with an open mind you can find things to help you. Also, I have found that venting here helps me alot! Sometimes just talking to someone else that you know has been in your shoes is so helpful. I hate it when I am trying to tell my husband what I am feeling and he tries to act like he knows what I'm going through...even worse, a lot of times he will try to minimize the issue. Like it's not that big of a deal. I don't think anyone here will ever do that.
If you need an extra ear feel free to PM me. I try to check in here a couple times a day at least.
Good luck! Just try to hang in there and don't think about how your going to feel tomorrow. Only think about right now. Can you make it through the next hour without using? I bet you can...
Yea the cravings are easily the worst part of this process for me. I havent been this long off opiates since the first day i tried them. I was always so scared of the physical part not knowing there is a whole different beast to tame when it comes to the mental part, i never knew since i never got to that point before.
My sister and brother in law took me into their place to get me away from everything, thank god for them. But they have no idea what addiction is like. They are always telling me to just say no and occupy myself with something, if only it were that easy, the cravings occupy every available space in my brain it seems.
My original sub doc had mandatory weekly sessions with a counselor, i really just didnt find it that helpful, thats one reason i found a doc who would write me a monthly script and be gone. It could be because my cravings were non existent then cause the sub kept those at bay. Im not much of a social person, im a loner, thats probably not that good for an addict. Although im here typing this right now so i guess that means im reaching out somewhat to talk to somebody.
I made it threw today without using, i actually felt better once i got to work and starting doing shit. Im about to tell me boss to start scheduling me 7 days a week, seems like thats the only thing that keeps my mind at bay. Having days off in a row and being bored at the same time are a bad combo for me it seems.