submitted a bit too early.
last night was this crazy turning point. I was driving my usual commute home in friday traffic which took almost 3 hours. As the time ticked away, I could literally feel some of my symptoms slowely get fainter... Almost slipping away subtley! It was a crazy emotional experience for me. I turned onto a street that I have driven down before 10s of thousands of time before........ And you know what? It looked different. I literally looked around as if it was my first time driving the highway. It had rained a lot last night, so this added to the experience. Suddenly colors around me seemed more vivid... Everything had this beautiful sheen to it... Everything was brighter! It was literally like seeing all this for the first time! What a turning point!
Guys, everyone who has posted anything so far... Thank you for all your kind words and empowering support! I hold it in high regard that I found this place! Your all great! I'm a lucky guy. I hope to hear more from yas... I be checkin in to the end to make sure you guys know I'm really going to finish this! You know why? Cuz I AM!! I've been a soldier my whole life through a lot of bullshit and this won't even start to scar me! I'm hoping that day 10 starts to even out for me because it's my only day off and I have to go apartment hunting
lol! And it's open house for my condo. Didn't think I was gunna stay with a 4hr a day commute my whole career did ya? Haa! So much for rest and relaxation!
So rounding 3rd I can feel it... Believe you me... I'm still draggin ass and feelin some usual suspects... But they're dulled in comparrison to days prior! It been such an eye opening and crazy experience. Look forward to tellin you guys the day I feel "GOOD"!!